Hello sweethearts!
I have been inactive for so long and I'm really sorry! *yes still since January -_-*
I'm slowly trying to get active again! *whoohoo*

Hmmz, I don't know if anyones interested in the reason why I was away for so long but I've been through a very difficult and hard time and I thought I'd let you sweethearts know..
*If you're not interested you can skip the rest *

- Because of a lot of financial problems I had to quit school and work a lot.
I was glad I could work so much because now I could really do something about the problems together with my boyfriend Marco (in stead of going to school, not bringing in any money etc.).
- Then begin June Marco lost his job. They made up a bunch of exuses and after that they said it was because of reorganization. But secretly they were actually going bankrupt.
But because they had promised him a new contract a few months ago this was really unsuspected and a really big shock to us and this gave us a lot more problems to deal with.
- After that Marco’s father had to undergo a really risky surgery and we were away for a week in a town more than 3 hours from home, which was really stressful, emotional and hard.
His father is doing fine now by the way.
- When we returned I found out that I was not planned in for the whole month of Juli at my job
(after my boss told me she would do everything she could to let me work 20 hours a week)
- Then I heard from a college that my boss did not even have the intention to plan me in for work anymore for the whole month of August!
When I dropped by to see for myself, I saw the schedule for this month and the first week of September. MY NAME WAS NOT EVEN ON IT!! I was (and still am) so furious about this!
I figured that they are not going to give me a new contract in October... And if they do I don't want to work there anymore anyways so..
Now I have to talk to my boss about the way they are treating me because it has really been rude! And not only this time..
She did not call or text me, she has not told me the reason I'm not planned in, and I bet she was not planning on telling me I don't get a new contract
(my other college only got the bad news in a letter in the mail -_- no phone call or end conversation or whatsoever..)
I'm quite shy so this is really hard for me.. And I’m already nervous and thinking about what to say etc.

But anyway, in conclusion, I'm a bit tired and down because all of this..
But I did get some rest and time for myself. I'm also finally starting to see things positive.
If anyone wants to know how this all goes/ends, let me know and I’ll update about it later.

Some good news, I was able to save some money to buy myself 12 months extra premium membership
My premium membership was ending the 17th and I could not resist haha.
I’m still really thankful to Chadamus for giving me this 3 month sub (and the two times before that hihi)!!
Only the weird thing is my profile says: 13 month premium membership: given by Chadamus.
I think it will change on the 17th and if not I don’t mind really haha.

Also because I'm feeling better and the weather is really sunny and great at the moment (although I am happy that it is raining now and it's cooling off a bit)
New pictures will come up soon! They are not great because they were kind of spontaneous but I think I'll post them anyway ^^

Well, if you're still reading, thank you for the effort, it means a lot to me
I know it's a long story with a lot of negativity but I think it just had to get out to give me some peace...

You all get lots of love and a really big kiss from me!